Establishing your mental, physical, emotional, spiritual & financial needs on your own is SO healthy.

It felt like I was re-wiring my brain back to homeostasis after being stuck in flight-or-flight for so long.

It can catch you feeling like you just launched into outer space and you're on a journey back to earth. 🛸

Being around animals, especially dogs, has helped me become aware of my energy.

Dogs see us as our energy in the present moment and respond to the message we are projecting. If we're unsure of them or the environment, they take over and become pack leaders.

Ma dog mom & dad's out there kno dis! When they listen only when they want, or you have to yell to get their focus?

Here are a few pros ➕

▪︎ Modest appetite during my pre-menstrual week; usually imma a food feen.
▪︎ Mental chatter is at peace- clear thinking.
▪︎ SUPER aware of any anxiousness that starts to build. Usually, I don't notice the anxiety until I'm about to burn out or crave coffee.

Creating a lasting foundation solidifies confidence, clarity, and a sense of safety that we can trust within ourselves.

But it can feel like we live in a black hole if our foundation is built on an unhealthy mindset.

For a long time, I felt disconnected from people and the world, so I ran off into the wilderness to pursue a self-sustainable lifestyle. From the east coast to the west coast, I searched

Binging and purging were what I built my intimate relationships around.

Binge on the pleasure of someone and then experience the pain of not having them around.

& repeat.

I let others binge and purge me emotionally because I treated myself the same way.

Perfection plagued me for so many years expressing its self through bulimia, depression, anxiety & OCD.

Don't lose energy.

Just like a house that needs a steady and firm foundation to keep you safe, your energy requires the same.

Facedown in an upward facing dog this morning, I found myself contemplating trust & where I felt a lack of it.

Choosing to walk in the threshold of life isn't comfortable or safe; it doesn't mean that just because you work towards something, that it's yours for the taking.

What if all we had to do to be blessed, was change our mindset?

Brave spirit,  

Don't you know, haven't you heard..

Imagine standing at the bottom of a staircase...

I finally did it.

Not alone, but with a handful of beautiful souls that support my path— I made one of the biggest transitions in my life.

"We won't find bliss within our ignorance, but we will discover elation, at the very core of our apprehensions."

C'mon sky

bring the sunshine

This rain and gloom

feel like doom

My mind is strong

but these days are long

Fuck the clouds!

I speak out loud

Bring the light!

so I can fight

these dark damp days

that never pay

but to sit and dream

of what tomorrow

shall bring.

The layers within myself are coming undone.

As the northern hemisphere moves into the barren of winter - so am I.