Choosing to walk in the threshold of life isn't comfortable or safe; it doesn't mean that just because you work towards something, that it's yours for the taking.
However, even with the smallest curiosity of seeking this unknown space, we're blessed with the opportunity of discovering a hidden gem where we'd least expect it.
This gift can show up as a battle that could consume us whole, or worse, we make it out alive as a completely different person.
But it is still there whether we want it to be or not.
It's our personal invite to at least show the fuck up, face the resistance, and encourage ourselves to collide with this inevitable flow of expansion.
These past 9 months have blessed me with the set & setting to surrender to my own unexplored void and realize that I'm just a vessel of this bigger 'thing'.
I'm really nothing more and nothing less - just a mess that's blessed and that's why it scares the shit out of me.
26 years on this earth and I'm just now starting to understand that every little moment before this moment has led me up to these past 40 weeks. With this momentum, the time has come to become self-aware of how and why I was running from this space of discovery.
While denying this truth for so long, I felt like a tree stuck in a plastic pot, slowly becoming depleted from the confinement of my artificial environment. Standing in my threshold, scared as fuck, I decided to break up my old roots and plant myself into a whole new element.
So with the help of an actual lemon tree that was stuck in a pot way too long, my 9-month journey with the Gray Institute, and micro-dosing with plant medicines, I accepted this gift to walk into the unknown, knowing I had to leave my old construct behind.
I am so glad I did.
Not only did I receive this gift of transformation in my mind, body, and spirit, but I was blessed with the ultimate GIFT of meeting the man of my dreams. This beautiful synchronicity reminds me that when we decide to step out of our comfort zone and not let the resistance intimidate us, we synch into a force of something even bigger than ourselves.
An essence that wants us to evolve and stand in our power as we are, not what we were 5 years ago or 9 months ago, but who we are today and the superhuman we're transforming into.
Edited by: Jeffrey Solow