Hey my lovelies,
First off, if you're reading this, I just want to say thank you for being here with me. Whether this is your first time reading my blog, or if you've been with me since the beginning, thank you.
My reasoning behind this moment of gratitude is because last night I ran into some old friends from high school (wooo Gulf coast high class of 2010!) and before I was able to say much about what I've been up to these days, I had a handful of amazing compliments thrown my way.
Not about how I looked, or the killer stockings I was rocking...but about Mind Body Physique.
How they've read my work or watched my videos, and have been cheering me on behind the scenes these past few years.
Those little moments rock my fucking world.
Because let's be real, I'm not Instagram famous or have a million followers on my youtube channel, I'm just me. Out here doing my thing because it makes me happy.
So those moments when someone in real life, not on facebook with a thumbs up or a double tap on insta say's, your words have helped me see things differently, thank you. It makes what I love to do, even more beautiful.
And you wanna know the craziest part? It's been happening more and more lately which reminds me how fucking lucky I am to be an influence in someone's life.
So thank you, each of you. For seeing me, my work and opening space in your mind to let my words ebb and flow.
Now on to the juicy stuff...
Let's be real here friends, emotions are kinda annoying, right? They can make our lives confusing and downright painful at times. But at the very same time, emotions can make us feel absolute bliss.
Joy and sorrow.
Strong and weak.
Trusting and fearful.
Angry and calm.
Kind and cruel.
Peaceful and aggressive.
Let's face it, we can't run from how we feel. We can't shove our emotions into a box and put them on the shelf. We can only face them and begin to understand what causes them.
Until my early 20's, I felt like a victim of my own emotions.
That I couldn't help but feel the way I do and with that feeling of sadness or hurt, I reacted in ways that had a long-lasting effect on my mentality. Not only did these moments of pain store in my psyche but they were manifesting into my body as well.
Aches and pains of muscle tightness, headaches, digestive issues, nail-biting... these emotions came full circle so not only mentally did I have to deal with them, but now I had to take notice of the physical pain and trauma it was causing as well.
It wasn't until one day recently I realized that hey, you know what?
I don't have to feel this way if I don't want to!
Sounds so damn simple right? It is! I swear at that moment, I didn't have any more fucks to give about emotions that no longer serve me.
That doesn't mean I don't feel this vast spectrum of love and pain we all go through every day. Because as an empath I feel more than just my own muck, I feel other's too.
But it simply means just because it's on my plate, doesn't mean I have to eat it.
Emotional freedom is what you make it. Each of us can play the victim and the hero.
Just remember only you can be your own hero over your emotions. Don't blame them on others, or give yourself excuses for feeling the way you do.
Own that fucking shit.
It's yours and no-one else's.
Save your fucks for magical shit,